Shit. I have volleyball this Saturday. I don’t feel like I’m improving. I am so tired, but tired from what? I’m exhausted. Driving around town for 2 hours to look for my grandpa because we left on a whim after an arguement. I hate family drama. We’re so disfunctional, but I’m stuck with them. Ohhhhh look. One missed call. My dad. Uhhh no. I am not, going to answer that. Even if I weren’t in class, I wouldn’t answer it. Why is it so hard to shut people out of your life? “When All We Ever Do is Say Goodbye” by John Mayer is playing. I hate goodbyes. I really do. I gained so much from this past year. I seriously slacked last year. A GPA of 2.5? Ridiculous. Next year is going to kick my ass. I’m so scared. Scared I’m going to fail, scared things aren’t going to go as planned. Will I be able to handle so much pressure? I really need to stop. All I think about is the future, but I can’t help it. I’m almost half way done with high school. Oh god. It flew by. In some of those moments, I wish I realized the importance of some of the people around me. I miss Liz and Michellee, and Emily too. I wonder where they’re at. Do they feel a sense of freedom out of high school? I feel so stuck here. It sucks. We all promisd each other we’d stay in touch. Another broken promise, but hey, it happpens all the time. It’s just another disappointment. Do people ever really keep in touch? Will our lives just seperate once we’re out of here? Or is it just easier to forget? I’m going to miss this year, no doubt.